Just last week I started my levelling course to go back to college. I received a scholarship from the Government 2 weeks ago. I am excited about that, but there is something no scholarship can ever teach, and below is what the awesome women in my course taught me this week.
I met a few of the ladies who were in my course and it surprised me to see that they were all intelligent, self-sufficient fighters. WE all are. We are the survivors of some bad choices and situations. And we have a great story to tell. It might not start out like a nice story, but most of them, I am sure, will have a very happy ending.
As I talked to each one of my classmates, I was awed at the feats that they had to overcome. Some were horror stories, some were less horrible but still heartbreaking. My story was similar, not horrible but heartbreaking. And I have felt ashamed of myself for not making my marriage work, for having to carry my burdens and sustain my little girl all by myself, for having made some really stupid choices, for not having made some other choices. Sometimes the work seems overwhelming, and if I didn't have God consoling me constantly, I would have probably jumped in front of a train by now. Sometimes it's just hard to know right from wrong and make the correct turn at the right time. Sometimes I have just been stupid, immature and naive.
I understand pain, disillusionment, loss of self and self-esteem. I have been there. And that is the reason why I look up to each of these beautiful, strong women. They have shown me what a woman is capable of, and we are capable of dealing with so much! I can appreciate those women because they are doing something, getting somewhere and they are doing it with their bare hands, despite all odds being against them.
Please feel my love going out to you, all you precious angels who have cried yourselves to sleep in the middle of the night and kept a smile on your faces during the day for your kids, all of you who have been left, mistreated, unloved, unwanted, belittled, abused, ashamed. You women, who have made a future for yourselves, to be an example for your children. You who have fought against all odds. You who have swallowed your pride and kept going, not for yourselves but to offer your kids warm clothes, food and a roof over your family's head. I APPRECIATE YOU! You did not suffer for nothing, then if you had not gone through all these experiences, you would never have found out the inner strength and beauty that you possess. My hat's off to you ladies!
DO you know any women who take being a woman to the next level of awesome? I am proud to know a few! Thanks for the inspiration MOM, Lynda and girls from the SPAZ! I have a special place in my heart for each and every one of you!
I met a few of the ladies who were in my course and it surprised me to see that they were all intelligent, self-sufficient fighters. WE all are. We are the survivors of some bad choices and situations. And we have a great story to tell. It might not start out like a nice story, but most of them, I am sure, will have a very happy ending.
As I talked to each one of my classmates, I was awed at the feats that they had to overcome. Some were horror stories, some were less horrible but still heartbreaking. My story was similar, not horrible but heartbreaking. And I have felt ashamed of myself for not making my marriage work, for having to carry my burdens and sustain my little girl all by myself, for having made some really stupid choices, for not having made some other choices. Sometimes the work seems overwhelming, and if I didn't have God consoling me constantly, I would have probably jumped in front of a train by now. Sometimes it's just hard to know right from wrong and make the correct turn at the right time. Sometimes I have just been stupid, immature and naive.
I understand pain, disillusionment, loss of self and self-esteem. I have been there. And that is the reason why I look up to each of these beautiful, strong women. They have shown me what a woman is capable of, and we are capable of dealing with so much! I can appreciate those women because they are doing something, getting somewhere and they are doing it with their bare hands, despite all odds being against them.
Please feel my love going out to you, all you precious angels who have cried yourselves to sleep in the middle of the night and kept a smile on your faces during the day for your kids, all of you who have been left, mistreated, unloved, unwanted, belittled, abused, ashamed. You women, who have made a future for yourselves, to be an example for your children. You who have fought against all odds. You who have swallowed your pride and kept going, not for yourselves but to offer your kids warm clothes, food and a roof over your family's head. I APPRECIATE YOU! You did not suffer for nothing, then if you had not gone through all these experiences, you would never have found out the inner strength and beauty that you possess. My hat's off to you ladies!
DO you know any women who take being a woman to the next level of awesome? I am proud to know a few! Thanks for the inspiration MOM, Lynda and girls from the SPAZ! I have a special place in my heart for each and every one of you!
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