According to the Farlex dictionary, the word Conversion means:
1. To change (something) into another form, substance, state, or product; transform
2. To change (something) from one use, function, or purpose to another; adapt to a new or different purpose.
And exactly that is what I have noticed is happening to me right now. I have been a Christian for the past 18 years. I am just now a convert in Christ.
It all started at the beginning of Lent, when I decided that I could only do so much by myself and I was going to give up my need for self control and give God the reins over my life. I started noticing little things like I did not feel like saying cuss words. It did not come out of me naturally. I didn't feel like listening to music like Lady Gaga, but was hungry for praise and worship. Depraved thoughts didn't have a place in my mind either. I woke up in the middle of the night with a huge need to talk to God, and although I know that He knows what is going on, I really needed to tell Him and pray about stuff.
All of a sudden, things outside of my reach and control started to happen too. I got my paperwork for the move almost in order, I got even more than I bargained for! I asked God if He wanted me to stay or go somewhere else, but whatever it was, I just wanted to know that He was blessing the decision. And sure enough, things started to go right. People I barely had contact with, started to come out of the woodwork and offered to help with the move. Things I never thought of, God had in His mind and that worked out fine as well.
I have been praying like crazy. I kinda know that God likes me on my knees and talking to Him about my stuff. But it's definitely not in my nature to do this! It does not congrue with my personality at all. I want to go to service, feed on the Word of God. And normally, I hate soft music but I come to total peace while listening to worship songs. I know that a change in me is starting to take place and it finally feels like I am doing what I was meant to do. The Spirit in me has transformed me, changed my functioning, adapted me for another purpose. God does the work when we allow it.
About the Women's Ministry, I am sure that I don't need a doctorate in anything. I just need to say what God wants me to say and do what He puts in my heart. This is the true reason why He has let me have such deep insight into so many different things. And because of this change, I know that this is all with His blessing. I would never come up with this spiritual transformation, I wouldn't have the strength to change so many things at once. I wouldn't even come up with this stuff!! But it feels really good to be transformed and have a different purpose in life. Now all those worship songs kinda make sense!
I am loving every second of life. For the first time ever. Even if there are difficulties on the road, it has never been so beautiful to walk this earth! And this is coming from somebody who got off prozac in january.
Have you had such a radical conversion? Would you like to?
And exactly that is what I have noticed is happening to me right now. I have been a Christian for the past 18 years. I am just now a convert in Christ.
It all started at the beginning of Lent, when I decided that I could only do so much by myself and I was going to give up my need for self control and give God the reins over my life. I started noticing little things like I did not feel like saying cuss words. It did not come out of me naturally. I didn't feel like listening to music like Lady Gaga, but was hungry for praise and worship. Depraved thoughts didn't have a place in my mind either. I woke up in the middle of the night with a huge need to talk to God, and although I know that He knows what is going on, I really needed to tell Him and pray about stuff.
All of a sudden, things outside of my reach and control started to happen too. I got my paperwork for the move almost in order, I got even more than I bargained for! I asked God if He wanted me to stay or go somewhere else, but whatever it was, I just wanted to know that He was blessing the decision. And sure enough, things started to go right. People I barely had contact with, started to come out of the woodwork and offered to help with the move. Things I never thought of, God had in His mind and that worked out fine as well.
I have been praying like crazy. I kinda know that God likes me on my knees and talking to Him about my stuff. But it's definitely not in my nature to do this! It does not congrue with my personality at all. I want to go to service, feed on the Word of God. And normally, I hate soft music but I come to total peace while listening to worship songs. I know that a change in me is starting to take place and it finally feels like I am doing what I was meant to do. The Spirit in me has transformed me, changed my functioning, adapted me for another purpose. God does the work when we allow it.
About the Women's Ministry, I am sure that I don't need a doctorate in anything. I just need to say what God wants me to say and do what He puts in my heart. This is the true reason why He has let me have such deep insight into so many different things. And because of this change, I know that this is all with His blessing. I would never come up with this spiritual transformation, I wouldn't have the strength to change so many things at once. I wouldn't even come up with this stuff!! But it feels really good to be transformed and have a different purpose in life. Now all those worship songs kinda make sense!
I am loving every second of life. For the first time ever. Even if there are difficulties on the road, it has never been so beautiful to walk this earth! And this is coming from somebody who got off prozac in january.
Have you had such a radical conversion? Would you like to?
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