I have been reading about spiritual gifts and things we can do to serve God. Having spiritual superpowers is awesome. I wanna have some too!! But the truth is, as much as I have been doing to find a home in this world, I have totally neglected my duties for my heavenly home. And even worse, I can't remember when I last took those chores seriously. So I can't honestly think that God will give me spiritual gifts if He can't trust me to do the little things, like go to church on Sundays, right? I might be homeless in Heaven too, at this rate!
Several people in different churches and at different times in my life have told me that God has a plan for me to build a ministry for women, with women. And I have been really scared to even get started. I have prayed about it. I have also read up a lot on the subject. But I have totally caved in when the time has come to DO something about it. The reason for this is weakness of faith.
I feel totally undeserving of such a huge deal. And this is the reason why I want to apply to my Father's house, to be the smallest and most meaningless of His servants. I want to do the litte chores and work my way up to pleasing the Lord with everything I do, say and am.
Since I gave up my will for Lent, things have become much clearer and the path a whole lot less complicated. God has a good plan for me and I want to follow it. I long to hear His command. And this is why I am proud to be His servant. Even if it means washing someone's feet.
Several people in different churches and at different times in my life have told me that God has a plan for me to build a ministry for women, with women. And I have been really scared to even get started. I have prayed about it. I have also read up a lot on the subject. But I have totally caved in when the time has come to DO something about it. The reason for this is weakness of faith.
I feel totally undeserving of such a huge deal. And this is the reason why I want to apply to my Father's house, to be the smallest and most meaningless of His servants. I want to do the litte chores and work my way up to pleasing the Lord with everything I do, say and am.
Since I gave up my will for Lent, things have become much clearer and the path a whole lot less complicated. God has a good plan for me and I want to follow it. I long to hear His command. And this is why I am proud to be His servant. Even if it means washing someone's feet.
